Korean Heroine

I'm going to strive to be more like the heroines in my Korean dramas. They are strong, passionate, and work hard to make their own way. The men just happen to fall in their lap.

Heroine 1:

 

Jang Man Ok a.k.a. Michelle Jang

She's a martial arts master and a fashionista! True, she is naive and her hair is a wild mess! But she is determined and tough and a good, caring person. She's not very good at choosing friends but she is understanding and never jumps to conclusions.

 

 

Heroine 2:

Geum Jan Di! She's a fiesty swimmer managing to hold her own in an elite private school, despite her own poverty and bad luck. She's got a good heart and a deep sense of justice. While her pride can put her in tough spots, she is none the less a role model. (plus she never diets and is a glutton).

 

Heroine 3: Go Min Nam a.k.a. Go Mi Nyu
She is the epitome of a useless heroine; clueless, clumsy, with no fighting ability. But she's smart, classy, and trust-worthy. She can seem helpless at times but her spiritual strength is amazing and her ability to love is boundless.

Heroine 4: Hwang Ji-ahn
For a headstrong designer in her mid-thirties, she has spunk! She handles an unplanned pregnancy and an unlikely romance with the baby's father better than anyone! Her career is harsh but she is unyielding. However, just before giving birth, she puts her child's needs above her own, and, having completed her own ambitious goals, settles in to a calm life with the baby's father. She's tough as nails but gorgeous and feminine. Definitely traits to have!

Heroine 5: Gong Ah-Jung.
Okay, maybe "fantastic liar" isn't a trait I should copy. But I give her props, she decided not to really get married until she was ready. She also works hard, and looks great doing it! She can be selfish and ridiclous sometimes and easily jumps to conclusions, so those are things to avoid as well as the lying thing.

Heroine 6: Wi Mary
Wi Mary is honest, playful, works hard, and doesn't put up with bullshit. She knows what money is worth but refuses to be bought. She is determined to be her own woman. She is really intelligent. One of the few intelligent Korean heroines. She doesn't drink often, as she is prone to blacking out. She's not very assertive unless you really bug her.

I Feel Lost

Lost: adjective

1. No longer possessed or retained: lost friends.

2. no longer to be found: lost articles.

3. having gone astray or missed the way; bewildered as to place, direction, etc.: lost children.

4. not used to good purpose, as opportunities, time, or labor; wasted: a lost advantage.

5. being something that someone has failed to win: a lost prize.

 

I used to think I'd get married. I never really thought about the who or when or where. I just supposed that one day I'd be married to somebody I love that also loves me and even though it'd be a lot of work, we'd be happy. I'm 24. I have witnessed 11 couples commit to each other, through marriage or an engagement. It makes me feel left out. It's not just the wedding thing, 6 of those couples didn't have a wedding, and only two had a "big" wedding. If I wanted a flwery party and a white dress, I'd just BUY it. But, I want to share my life with someone. When I broach the subject with my significant other of 2 years (true, we went through a few breaks) he panics and asks me why I want him to die.

 

That should be a red flag. Maybe I'm too absorbed to realize he's too immature. I feel Lost. I have lost my way and am bewildered. My time has not been used to good purpose. I could be married twice over if I didn't childishly insist it's to someone I love. I don't joke on that. I was pursued by a great guy with a good job, his own house, and the will to bring me the moon if I asked for it.

 

After that, I became the muse to a good old-fashioned country boy, who was eager to hold onto me and save me for himself. Although his family was broken, he had a good heart, and at least would have tried to make me happy.

 

No, I fall in love with a man who is really a child, nursing old wounds from his parents' divorce and holding on to his teenage angst like a pitbull to a steak. Most likely, he will need one more year to realize he needs to straighten up and get his act together. Then a year after that to get his act together, then a year to see if the 'new' him and the 'old' me still match up, then, maybe maybe he'd think about the remote possibility of getting married.

 

I'm flirting with the idea of being engaged to myself. After all, I entertain myself best. I'm a great date and know exactly what I want to hear. It'll help me hold my other dates to a higher standard and prevent feeling lost. Even if I never find someone wonderful enough to break up with myself for, Me and I can be happy together.